So... the holidays are just not the same this year. Lately, I have been having a lot of "I should be" moments. Thanksgiving... I "should" be thankful for something- anything. Black Friday "I should be" shopping for a toddler. Last night... "I should be going to the holiday parade with Laura, Ruby, Ivy and Olivia." I "should" post to that blog.
So... I can't change most of those things... but I can post.
Anyone who knows anything about me knows that Christmas is "my" holiday. I love it. Everything about it. I don't start celebrating until the day after Thanksgiving but come midnight on Thanksgiving and I am all in. I rock out to Christmas music, love cheesy made for tv holiday movies and plan all month for Christmas Eve dinner. I have lots and lots of decorations and wholeheartedly look forward to the morning of the 26th so I can go shopping for after Christmas sales to expand my holiday hoard.
As usual, last year, we went shopping. I really wanted to buy a small pink tree for Olivia but I couldn't find one I liked. So I bought a 4 foot fake tree and all the trimmings. I got pink beads, glittery snowflakes, and purple and pink ornaments. All for Olivia's tree. Christmas is my favorite holiday and I wanted it to be hers too. I wanted her to have a tree just for her in her room. Well... this year I wasn't sure about it but I put up that tree. I thought about decorating it differently but I didn't. It is just as planned- and I must say... I am good. It is beautiful and I know that she would have loved it. I know that years from now things will be different but it will always be Olivia's tree. I will decorate it differently and set it up in a different place but I will always think about her when I set it up. I will remember the morning when I braved the crowds with her to search for a pink tree and came home with this one.
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